Vivien Buckley

I had an auto immune disease called relapsing polychondritis, which was moderate. It seems that the one good thing that the shot did for me was to eliminate it. Also, I have a genetic eye disease called Retinitis Pigmentosa (RP) and a slow progressing CNGB1 gene.

I got my one and only shot at 3:00 pm April 8, 2021. At around 6:00 pm, on the same day, I was looking out the window and noticed a zig zaggy line in my right peripheral vision.

On April 27th, I wrote in my diary “something seems to be going on with my eyesight.”

By Sunday May 9th, I came down with strep throat. I had no idea why as we were in lockdown and nobody else in the family was sick. My family doctor prescribed penicillin. I was convalescing on the couch when I suddenly got this huge dense rush of dark floaters which alarmed me, but my throat was killing me. I could not swallow, and my glands were swollen under my jaw. My right Eustachian tube was so blocked and painful that I couldn’t sleep. I had a headache and was so exhausted that I didn’t have the strength to pursue an appointment for my eyesight, however I was beginning to suspect that the shot was related.

I expressed my concerns to my husband and my girlfriend, who both said that I had better vision than them and didn’t even wear glasses, so figured I was just overreacting and dropped it. However, as the days passed, I was getting increasingly concerned and decided that I needed to see an ophthalmologist. The ophthalmologist’s office told me that they were swamped as lockdowns had just been lifted and suggested that I go to the Emergency Room instead. I did not want to spend 8 or more hours in the waiting room of the ER, so I booked an appointment with the ophthalmologist which was 3 months out. My doctor got me in to see an optometrist within the week. She ran some tests and told me my central vision was excellent, and where I was complaining of loss of vision, there was no indication of RP. She wondered whether it had something to do with my autoimmune disease instead.

I was so stressed by June 15th/21, I wrote in my diary “this vaccine, I don’t know how, but it is reducing my eyesight. Look how much it’s taken in 2 months. There is no way out of this. I cannot un-vaccinate myself. Where is this going? Does the spike protein ever leave your body? Nothing can be done about this. I had so much positivity towards the vaccine. I

am terrified of it now, not just for me but my family. I didn’t worry about my eyesight only the autoimmune disease.” Looking back on this entry, I now see how prescient my words were.

I reached out and connected with a professor of immunology who was making the rounds on TV, pushing for the shot. She told me that she was not a clinician but could get me in to see an optometrist who was a friend. I saw him the following day. He had all kinds of journals spelling out immune dysregulation after taking an mRNA vaccine. He said it was dysregulation of Complement 3, and no inhibitors exist to stop it. Now, what optometrist is this well versed on immunology? This info must have come from the immunologist. He emailed me journals. One said that in the lab, rats tested with the mRNA technology went blind. I was petrified; my husband tried to calm me down and said that “the guy is just an optometrist. He does not know what he is talking about.” I stupidly threw the papers out.

The ensuing months were a terrifying nightmare; I was experiencing other horrible side effects that took me to my bed. I wondered if I was the only one going through all this.

-Terrifying indescribable adrenaline surges, which I had never experienced before.

-I lost balance. I would faint sometimes when standing. Shaking uncontrollably.

-I felt like electricity was coursing through my brain. Got shingles. Lost 30 pounds.

-I had constant twitching or a feeling of twinkling lights under my skin on my legs.

-I was unable to string a sentence together. I couldn’t think of words. Brain fog.

-I stopped sweating but on two occasions broke out in profuse sweat with it rolling down my face with no exertion. My feet were ice cold despite the hot weather.

-I acquired loud tinnitus. Loud noises were so piercing, that I had to cover my ears.

-My heart had begun beating erratically. I also noticed my heart was skipping beats.

-I experienced amber, yellow vision. Static around my vision. Kaleidoscope vision. Loss of depth perception. A red poinsettia type thing would pop up from my lower left peripheral vision. A-whitish, yellowish oblong would appear in my upper left peripheral vision and two vertical mottled green and grey bands appeared on either side of my vision. I watched as this vibrating fog in my peripheral vision was moving closer to my central vision. I now have a vibrating fog covering my entire vision.

-My family's faces were distorted when I looked at them. They were asymmetrical.

-Eyes were painful to move side to side, with pain behind my left eye. Stabbing pain in my eyes when looking at any kind of light. It felt like a knife was going through them. I wore two pairs of sunglasses in the house and when going to appointments.

-My left eyelid swelled. My family doctor thought it was a stye, however the neuro ophthalmologist I am now seeing, said it wasn’t. Instead, she believed it was viral because she could see a raised lymph node presenting at the side of my head.

-I had raised small lymph nodes under my left arm pit and a ganglion cyst at the bottom of my little finger and palm of my hand. I’d never had a ganglion cyst before.

When I finally got in to see the ophthalmologist, I was the low hanging fruit. He did not believe the shot was the cause of my eyesight loss. No matter how much I insisted passionately that this all happened after the shot, he refused to believe me. I told him that the optometrist thought it might have something to do with my autoimmune disease. He told me she wouldn’t say that. He arranged an appointment at the Eye Institute in Toronto.

Every appointment I went to I naively believed a cure existed to whatever was going on, if only they believed me. At the eye institute, my husband (who loves technology), stood with the technician to watch every test. After seeing the extent of the vision loss, he to was convinced that the damage was due to the shot, saying “there’s no way you didn’t notice that much vision loss.” On Monday August 23/21, I wrote in my diary; “I am so frustrated that I’ve had umpteen field of vision tests, eye chart tests, looking for inflammation in my eyes. I’m going around in circles with time passing and nothing is being done about it.”

The ophthalmologist called late one night with the results from the Eye Institute; I put the phone on speaker so Dave, my husband, could hear it too. The ophthalmologist told us I have bilateral retinal dysfunction, that it is very serious, and involves both my rods and cones. This was significant and also something to do with my colour vision. He kept saying how serious it all was. He said there’s no inflammation, but there is scarring. Then ended the conversation with “I can’t understand how you didn’t notice this before.” I again pressed that it all happened after the shot but to no avail. I decided I would never go see him again.

I heard about a rheumatologist at McMaster University in Hamilton who was looking into long covid. I got an appointment with him although I no longer was having flares from my autoimmune disease. He was wonderful and took his time to listen to me. He believed me! He ordered blood tests. After the results came in, he was genuinely surprised and said my immune system looked like I was on immune suppressants (IgG, IgM). Additionally, my Complement 3 flagged low. My platelets, lymphocytes, absolute lymphocytes (which can be a prognostic marker for COVID, which I never had), leukocytes, Basophils were all high.

I saw another ophthalmologist who heard that the shot caused ocular side effects, but she couldn’t help me. She referred me to a retinal specialist. I saw the retinal specialist who spent all of 7 minutes with me. As I got out of the chair, he told me to leave my phone number at the front desk and was going to call me after work. He did indeed call and told

me that it’s not that he didn’t believe me, but he couldn’t help me. Why didn’t he tell me that while I was still in the chair, rather than later over the phone? It was my first inkling that doctors were under some kind of threat for speaking about/agreeing with vaccine injuries.

I saw an Otolaryngologist, ENT. His Audiologist told me they were seeing a sizeable increase in patients who were losing their hearing and or had sudden onset tinnitus. The ENT was aware of the shots causing auditory impairment and believed it was neurological in nature but admitted there was nothing he could do to help. I started seeing a neuro ophthalmologist. She admitted that she has other patients who claim they got ocular side effects after the shot but added “we don’t know as we can’t connect it to that.” After she looked into my eyes, she said I have swelling in my left eye and that the capillaries are so small she couldn’t see them. I told her one of the many side effects from the shot is small branch ocular occlusion. She said nothing: not maybe, not absolutely not. I filled in the silence by saying that I understood the difficulty as no diagnostic test has come to market.

I was taking anti anxiety drugs for my overwhelming anxiety but then got addicted. (Off now.) Other than that I have nothing to reverse the damage to my eye sight. I got back to working out which sometimes causes me anxiety when I see what I can no longer see. I do my best. I talk to a Psychologist.

Anti anxiety may have prevented me from going over the edge but they backfire and you become dependent and leads to depression.

Doctors equate everything with the norm before the vaccine. They don’t realize they cannot depend on earlier knowledge because this is a whole new ballgame with a whole new technology. We have all been through this and have been through a nightmare with no acknowledgment, no help, no guidance to doctors, and no independent data collection looking for signals after an injection never before used on humans. It’s truly unbelievable and shocking. They failed to further clarify when they said, “we’re all in this together,”; they should have added, “unless of course you are vaccine injured, then, we will abandon you.”